Nowadays

(album: Boy You Betta Turn Up - 2019)

I really wanna know
I really wanna know
Really wanna know
Wanna know
Nowadays
Nowadays (boy you betta turn up)

I wanna know why people judging me nowadays
And why they leave me out in the streets nowadays
And my family and friends my enemies nowadays
Got so much anger locked inside of me nowadays
Didn't give a fuck
I started smoking, I started drinking
Was living it up, hurting my body, I wasn't thinking
Start riding my wave, hopped on my boat, I started sinking
I started sinking, man what was I thinking

Living out a plastic bag really made me sumn
No sympathy for the was who never gave me nothing
I was saving for a whip, trying to slave me sumn
I've been working OT tryna save me sumn
My og, she ain't the same I can hear it when she talk
I can see it in her face and I can tell how she walk
It was sunny outside but we was living in the dark
It was all fun and games till them drugs took a spark
And my grandma, I thank god for that blessing
She was the perfect teacher, taught me all the right lessons
She transformed me from a boy to a man
From a prince to a king, from a palm to a hand

I wanna know why people judging me nowadays
And why they leave me out in the streets nowadays
And my family and friends my enemies nowadays
Got so much anger locked inside of me nowadays
Didn't give a fuck
I started smoking, I started drinking
Was living it up, hurting my body, I wasn't thinking
Start riding my wave, hopped on my boat, I started sinking
I started sinking, man what was I thinking

I'm like damn, look at my past situations
Wasn't nothing in the crib, my lifestyle was kind of vacant
If I want it, I'ma take it
I'm just really tryna make it
Hearing voices in my head, swear to God I can't fake it
What you know about, living in a house full of roaches
And they follow you to school, you hope nobody notice
Out of your brothers you the oldest, so you gotta be the man
But you ain't have no guidance 'cause your family full of sin, oh wow
I tried to do it, but I couldn't hoe out
I went through it, but I wouldn't hoe out
I'm so down, I'm so up
I'm so left, I'm so right
I'm so shook, I'm so stuck, oh wow

I wanna know why people judging me nowadays
And why they leave me out in the streets nowadays
And my family and friends my enemies nowadays
Got so much anger locked inside of me nowadays
Didn't give a fuck
I started smoking, I started drinking
Was living it up, hurting my body, I wasn't thinking
Start riding my wave, hopped on my boat, I started sinking
I started sinking, man what was I thinking