Pandemonium

(album: Into The Past - 2022)

I feel a cold apprehension, a moment of tension, I can't help but notice the signs
Looks like a storm is approaching, a torrent that's hoping to drown out the sound of our cries
I hear the rain as it starts to fall, sounds of a carnival swell in the eye of the storm
I feel the strangest sensation, the stark realization I don't have to try anymore

I put a lightning rod on top of the house
But I think I climbed in vain
'Cause the hopes I had were swallowed by doubt
When I felt that cold black rain

I feel pandemonium coming
The sound makes me sick to my stomach
Discordant harmonies ripped out a part of me
Can't feel my legs as I'm running
Towards a distant carousel turning
I sprint as the funnel clouds worsen
I ride to my own deathwish, I hide from my acceptance
I hate that these drugs aren't working again

Black out my eyes
I've been haunted by paranoid lies
I saw a sign on the skyline (skyline)
My time's come to an end
Drown out my fears
I've been running for thirty one years
I kept these terrors in my life (my life)
My time's come to an end

I feel a sense of devotion to shadows encroaching as sanity slowly dissolves
I hate the words that I've spoken, the bonds that I've broken by hiding away every fall
I see the dreadful adornment discolored by torment on flyers all over the town
I know its words are deceitful to tired eyes needful of rest or an easy way out

I put a lightning rod on top of the house
But I think I climbed in vain
'Cause the hopes I had were swallowed by doubt
When I felt that cold black rain

Black out my eyes
I've been haunted by paranoid lies
I saw a sign on the skyline (skyline)
My time's come to an end
Drown out my fears
I've been running for thirty one years
I kept these terrors in my life (my life)
My time's come to an end

My head's ridden with sin
I hear that music again
As a broke down carousel spins
Into the past to the end of my life
I ask why
Am I destined to die?
In the same disbelief that's been haunting my sleep every night