I'm Not Alright

(album: Look What You Made - 2022)

And I've been looking at these photos, tryna figure out
Where that light went, how long I've been what's out
And all I know is that we save that hurt
And it takes so much strength just to say those words, yeah
I got these old mixtapes with all these songs on them
I made for you, but you never really listen
And now I wish, these days, we never stopped talking
Yeah, I guess it's been a minute
But, I'm looking around and everyone here is bringing me down
Like, we used to have a voice but it got drowned out
And all of my friends, we used to dream about money and a career
But now the fear has got me freaking on my birthday every year
And I've been feeling like the time is wasting on my mind
I'm wearing this disguise like, "Everything is fine," but
All of y'all don't know nothing about me

And I don't know how long this story goes
But you don't like this story anyway
So I'll just leave this CD on your doorstep
Another chorus that you'll just get bored with
And for once you might have shit to say
But I'll stop you anyway

Mom drinks too much, that still don't change
I'm too far gone, I can't be saved
And all these pills that I take just make me sick
This life been hitting me in waves but
Maybe I'll just swim against the current
And I keep falling for the ones who wanna hurt me
I used to think "I wanna grow up so quick" till I got here
And the walls caved in, now everything's so blurry
And I'm feeling like the days, are wasting me away
And everyone keeps telling me that I'ma be okay, but
All of y'all don't know nothing about me

And I don't know how long this story goes
But you don't like this story anyway
So I'll just leave this CD on your doorstep
Another chorus that you'll just get bored with
And for once you might have shit to say
But I'll stop you anyway

I'm not okay
And that's okay with me
I'm not alright
I never claimed to be
I'm not okay
And that's okay with me
I'm not alright
I never claimed to be

And I don't know how long this story goes
But you don't like this story anyway
So I'll just leave this CD on your doorstep
Another chorus that you'll just get bored with
And for once, you might have shit to say
But I'll stop you anyway