where'd you go

(album: The D4tour - 2023)

Where'd you go? I miss you so
And I don't think I've ever felt so alone

Ay-yo, some days, they just don't hit
Some days I wanna quit
Give up all this music shit and dip
I used to think that this would make me happy if I made it
But lately I just been so uninspired and keep complaining
'Bout everything in my life and home, I'm always on the phone
More people listen now but I've never felt more alone
And I don't know if that's a product of the job
Or more the fact I call it a job now, and I refuse to stop
When I'm feeling run down to try to see my friends
If you ignore enough of 'em you'll stop receiving texts
And when I am around 'em I'm too stuck inside my head
So then I don't enjoy the moment and I just fear the day it ends, so
I want you to know I'm a little fucked up
I just can't shake it, more close to breaking
Than I've ever been at any point in my whole life
Staying up and I'm talking to myself like

Where'd you go? I miss you so
And I don't think I've ever felt so alone
Where'd you go? I miss you so
And I don't think I've ever felt so alone
Please come back home

Yeah, my girl loves me, don't know if she's still in love with me
I ain't had a drug but don't feel like I'm in recovery
Overthink the future then everything starts to fuck with me
Feel like I get used for this content until they done with me
But I should be happy, look at these numbers doubling
All the while the thoughts have just gradually gotten troubling
Got an empty tank, it's just fear and depression running me
While I built this up, my life was crumbling down
They say that everything in life is beautiful
I try to keep that in the forefront of my mind, but
Yesterday I fantasized my funeral
And that's the happiest I've been in some time, so
I don't know what's going on
But I know it used to help when I would put it in these songs
I always feared that I would end up here just like my mom
When she would isolate and get depressed and try to end it all, uh
Yeah, it's scary 'cause I finally understand
That all the things you thought would fix the problems really can't
Like why the fuck I feel this way if nothing's really bad? 'Cause
Happiness is not the absence of being sad, so
I guess I'm kinda fucked up
And I just can't shake it, more close to breaking
than I've ever been at any point in my whole life
Looking back at all the good times we felt, like

Where'd you go? I miss you so
And I don't think I've ever felt so alone
Where'd you go? I miss you so
And I don't think I've ever felt so alone
Please come back home