Barricade

(album: A Change In Diet - 2020)

Cause I don't wanna fear you

I can't concentrate
If I keep seeing your face
Showing up in tea leaves
Lit up on my TV
I can't stand up straight
Under your gravity
So I lay awake with my eyes closed

But who can really sleep
When you're counting them high
On your long summer drives
For mercy's sake
Would you look at your life?
Would you look at your life?

Now I'm not eating
I can't speak up
Under the table my legs are crossed

What the hell am I doing here in the golden dark?
What the hell am I doing here in the golden dark?
Feeling like I'm someone else who looks the part
I built up barricades to block my heart

Cause I don't wanna fear you
I don't wanna fear you

I can't punctuate
These boneless days
They keep crawling in
Sinking into my skin
I'm under your gravity
Frozen mathematically
And I lay awake with my eyes closed

But who can really move
When you're counting them high
On your long summer drives
For mercy's sake, for mercy's sake, for mercy's sake
I thought I'd ride all the same roads and skies
For mercy's sake
Would you look at your life?
Would you look at your life?

And I'm not breathing
I can't speak up
Under the table my legs are crossed

What the hell am I doing here in the golden dark?
What the hell am I doing here in the golden dark?
Feeling like I'm someone else who looks the part
I built up barricades to block my heart

Cause I don't wanna fear you
(What the hell am I doing here in the golden dark)

Who'd I think I was?
I'll never ride all the same roads and skies because
I'm under your gravity
Frozen mathematically
Crushed between your teeth
I lay awake with my eyes closed
I lay awake with my eyes closed