A Gift A Curse

(album: Eternal Enemies - 2014)

What I've done,
What I've seen.
The lives I've touched, what does it mean?
Losing track of everything.
I gave it all,
But what did I gain?
And I don't care what waits for me on the other side of life's release.
'Cause when I close my eyes your face is all I see,
So even if I die I'll never rest in peace.

I was desperate just to shine.
Now I struggle constantly to survive.

I have nothing to prove to you.

What I've done,
What I've seen.
The lives I've touched, what does it mean?
Losing track of everything.
I gave it all,
But what did I gain?
And I don't care what waits for me on the other side of life's release.
'Cause when I close my eyes your face is all I see,
So even if I die I'll never rest in peace.

And I've tried so many times to show that what I feel is real.
No, this is not a joke.
But you keep pushing me,
Yeah, you keep pushing me
And now you've gone too far.
And there's no turning back.
And now I hope you choke and fucking burn in hell.
Burn.

Nothing changes.
All I know is that
I'm alone in this.
Silently I wait hoping you'd come back for me.
All I know is that
I'm alone in this.
Silently I wait hoping you'd come back for me.

Seems like I'll be
Waiting 'till the end.
Knowing that I can't speak to you again.
Truth is you were never there.

I don't need your empty words or bullshit sympathy.
So here's a gift for all those years of mocking me.

Now I wish all this evil upon you.
You deserve to feel what I'm going through.
Now I wish this evil upon you.
You deserve to feel what I'm going through.