Hold U Up

(album: Dead Flowerz - 1996)

Sometimes that shit [?]

I been around the world, I seen a lot of bitches come and go
And if you wanna know act like a woman ho
I got no time for your little games
If you don't wanna be with me I know a thousand different bitches names
I know I always bring the drama
I make you wanna leave me and go back home with your crazy mama
I ain't got nothing else to tell ya except
I'm a natural born failure always fucking up
I know sometimes I make you cry
I stay out all night and come home high and don't have a alibi
It seems I got no reasons why
I did some suicidal murder riding hoping one day I fucking die
These circumstances got me noid
It seems I can't avoid how ya analyze my lies like Sigmund Freud
And so I'm asking for forgiveness
I don't even know why I did this, you used to be my baby

I ain't even trying to hold you up (I ain't even trying to hold you up)
I ain't even trying to hold you up ([?])
I ain't even trying to hold you up (I ain't even trying to hold you up)
I ain't even trying to hold you up ([?])

Ya say I fucked up with ya, well if I did let me hit ya
One last time, so you can get the the picture
Make me feel bad on the rainy days
Doing dirt, the pain follows me in many ways
It ain't no question how I feel, my shit is real
Mental thoughts are ill, murder me at will
I'm going crazy 'cause the thoughts of losing you are fatal
There's no way to express how I'm obsessed
I couldn't stand to see you with another man
My thoughts scream "if I can't have you, no one can"
And I can't blame you for wanting to leave
'Cause once a nigga deceive, it's hard for a bitch to believe in him
I fucked up and broke the trust
Digging on the DL, fuck your best friend on the hush hush
I guess it's nothing else to say except I fucked up
In the silly little games us niggas play

I ain't even trying to hold you up (I ain't even trying to hold you up)
I ain't even trying to hold you up ([?])
I ain't even trying to hold you up (I ain't even trying to hold you up)
I ain't even trying to hold you up ([?])

I gave you the best that I could give to anyone
I gave you my love but I guess
My love wasn't good enough for you
So I'm leaving you to learn ([?])
I gotta leave you
So I'm leaving you to learn ([?])
I gotta leave you