Overthinking

(album: Why Am I Like This? - 2019)

I'm on an overcrowded train
Fighting an overcrowded brain
And all these bags under my eyes
Hold up my compromise

Maybe I should change just everything, anything
Did you not learn anything in school?
Could have played by the rules
Could be happy in a different way

Struggling with the London rent
They said it would be hard now I know what they meant
I lose sleep, head stuck in the cereal bowl
But I'm here for the music, I know

Distracted!
Can I say what I mean, can I mean what I say
Why can't I figure out how I feel when I wake up everyday

Facing the world with the same old logic
Overanalysing everything is tragic
And maybe some things they will never make sense
So I tackle it all but I'm not making a dent, no

And I think my brain is breaking
And it's just myself I've been blaming
It's frustrating
I just wanna know why
And I know no good will come of it
I wish that I could just be done with it
But I'm sinking
I just wanna know why I'm overthinking...

I'm an outcast, to be left behind
I'm an extrovert with an anxious mind
There's a danger that I'm gonna pour my heart out to a total stranger
In a bar

And they're not gonna wanna hear
No, they're just there to sip their beer
Not hear about problems to solve
"God this girl's so self involved"

I play it out my head
I'm trying to make good choices
I hear voices
They can't pick one side
Help! I look so stupid
Sitting there tongue tied
Meltdown! All I can hear
Is code red, code red
Got a problem in the control centre
In my own head

Facing the world with the same old logic
Overanalysing everything is tragic
And maybe some things they will never make sense
So I tackle it all but I'm not making a dent, no

And I think my brain is breaking
And it's just myself I've been blaming
It's frustrating
I just wanna know why
And I know no good will come of it
I wish that I could just be done with it
But I'm sinking
I just wanna know why I'm overthinking...