Spectacular Now

(album: B-Sides - 2019)

Yeah
A quick trip to NOLA to catch up with some old friends

Yeah, I copped the whip and the next day, start thinking 'bout the next one
Like I ain't satisfied, in my head, I start second guessing
Appreciate where you at, I still ain't learned the lesson
Compare myself without realizing that I'm the blessed one
My good days and my bad days, they seem to keep on switching
Most artists I know feel like me, but you don't pay attention
Don't talk 'bout alcoholism, don't talk about addiction
Don't talk about mental health, don't talk about depression
Spend hours scrolling my socials, and I compare myself
See all the things I don't like in me, I can't bear myself
The voice in my head keeps talking, wish I ain't hear myself
And in the depths of my darkness, sometimes I scare myself
Is it ever good enough? Is the work I put in enough?
Is it going pop, is it too soft, or is it hood enough?
Nina Simone never could have been misunderstood enough
It's all there, you just gotta look enough, you know?

Is it good enough?
'Cause if not now, when will it ever be? (Uh)
Is it good enough? (Yeah)
Somebody show me the remedy (Uh, uh)
Is it good enough?
I remember when you said to me
'Cause if not now, when will it ever be?
'Cause if not now, when will it ever be? Oh no

The questions we ask ourselves
Things we don't talk about out loud
Yeah, uh

I fell out with all my exes, now they're cursing his name
Chasing ghosts and memories, I think I'm searching in vain
I self-medicate sometimes, they said it works for the pain
Sacrifice the personal life while tryna work for this fame
I put my personal gain before the people I love
And now I'm here, I ask myself while 20 deep in the club
Who really loves me for me or who's just here for the clout?
If I had to guess, it's 50/50 just to even it out, I'm rambling
Back on topic since they gave me the floor
The point's appreciate the present, I just wait here for more
And I been starting days with writing lists, what I'm grateful for
We're like some heroes to these kids, I drag my cape on the floor
We lost Nipsey and I cried 100 tears in my room
Let's celebrate our heroes now, not just when they're gone too soon, yeah
Fuck, I'm thinking back on him now
But don't get so caught up to where you miss the spectacular now
Let's go, uh

Is it good enough?
'Cause if not now, when will it ever be? (Uh)
Is it good enough? (Yeah)
Somebody show me the remedy (Uh, uh)
Is it good enough?
I remember when you said to me
'Cause if not now, when will it ever be?
'Cause if not now, when will it ever be? Oh no