Sonya

(album: Conflict Of Interest - 2021)

This girl here got a sponsor
60 year old monster
She don't care 'bout no age though
Just whose money's longer
We both went John Loughborough
I got kicked out for conduct
Jail by 15
Who'd you think writ me?
First letter from Mum, second from Sonya
"Dear Justin, I ain't gonna judge you, you already been sentenced
Send me a VO, I'll come through, I got plenty of questions"
I wrote back immediately
Wished her good luck with her GCSEs
She looked up to me previously, I knows I'm good company, seriously
Years go by, contact's lost
You don't know what that was
I know ballers who could've been ballers
Who got caught up and the contracts off
I know Sonya could've been a model
Word on the road is Sonya's washed
But that's my girl, my friend, my bredrin
She showed me what a real friend is

Before you judge me
Try and walk a day in my shoes
See what you don't see
Is all the shit I been going through
It's been a long, long day
Of battling these blues
So before you judge me
Try and walk a day
Try and walk a day in my shoes
Try and walk a day
Try and walk a day in my blues

All these years, no sight of her
I even been to the last address
When I was locked up 16, writing her
Knock, knock who's home?
Must be the wrong door
Nobody I know
Awkward moment
I've lost all composure
Why didn't you tell me you left?
Why didn't you say where you went?
Last I heard you was overqualified but can't find work
Had a friend in Dubai who invited you over
And now you're like her
Last I heard
You don't even check for your parents
You just wake and check your appearance
I don't know if me checking for you is checking to you
Or just interference, but dear Sonya, I ain't gonna judge you
Won't see me in no jury, so any verdict I come to
Still gunna end with yours truly
I just wish the world didn't corrupt you
It's been so long I don't know if you know me or knew me

Before you judge me
Try and walk a day in my shoes
See what you don't see
Is all the shit I been going through
It's been a long, long day
Of battling these blues
So before you judge me
Try and walk a day
Try and walk a day in my shoes

(This is where you just wanna disappear
Never told your nigga where
Now I think you didn't care
This is where you just wanna disappear
Never told your nigga where
Now I think you didn't care)

So great to hear from you
I see you've been doing good
Always knew way back from school
You were destined for greatness
I held a flame for you
Now you're setting fire to booths
Swear I've watched them all 100 times
That shit was amazing
Tell me how kiss and chase
And show and tell
Turns into me addressing your letters to a prison cell?
Life has its hazards
Way more snakes than ladders
I miss our innocence
I miss when life made way more sense
I'm sure you've heard some things
I'm sure you've heard some things

Before you judge me
Try and walk a day in my shoes
See what you don't see
Is all the shit I been going through
It's been a long, long day
Of battling these blues
So before you judge me
Try and walk a day
Try and walk a day in my shoes