I'm (Not) Okay

(album: Carroll County Sessions - 2022)

But I guess I'm okay and not staying clean
Yeah, I ruined that after three long years
'Cause the other night
I took something white
And I don't know why
I just wanted to feel alright
'Cause I'm not too well

Yeah, the past few weeks
Have been a living hell without her
And those three words
And it takes me back to that prison cell

I'm in a losing battle with sin
And now my mind is winning all over again
I'm tired of shaking my fist at you, oh God
Yeah, I'm begging will you please just let me in
Oh, I'm on my knees
And I don't know what else to say
But I'm not okay

But I guess I'm okay at not missing you
'Cause I don't call your phone when I'm up past two
And I'm a little drunk and high as fuck
But baby don't think I don't still think about you
Yeah I'm not too bad at being alone
I just wish it was your name on my phone
Instead of hers
Wonder if I'll learn that replacing you
Ain't gonna never work

I'm in a losing battle with sin
And now my mind is winning all over again
I'm tired of shaking my fist at you oh God
Yeah, I'm begging you
Will you please just let me in
Oh, I'm on my knees
And I don't know what else to say
But I'm not okay

And it's like every day is getting just a little harder
But I thought that I was supposed to be getting stronger

I'm in a losing battle with sin
And now my mind is winning all over again
I'm tired of shaking my fist at you oh God
Yeah, I'm begging you
Will you please just let me in
Oh, I'm on my knees
And I don't know what else to say
But I'm not okay
But I guess I'm okay