Dying To Live

(album: Forgive & Regret - 2020)

Well they say that there is humor in misfortune
No, I wonder if they'll laugh when I am dead

Why am I fighting to live
If I'm just living to fight?
Why am I trying to see
When there ain't nothing in sight?
Why am I trying to give
When no one gives me a try?
Why am I dying to live
If I'm just living to die?

Why they got hooked on opiate pill? ls
Why these doctors write prescriptions to these people when they know that it kills?
Why these politicians got us divided?
Why suicide rate and overdosing at an all-time high?
Why the ones that we love fuck us over n lyin'?
Why am I always trying to give when no one gives me a try?
Why they gunned down X and Nip?
When I turn on the news why I always get stressed and shit?
Why every girl trying to be like Kim?
But they don't wanna eat right, work hard, and go to the gym
Why that dealer sell that pack to Mac?
How we lose Jimmy Wopo same week? It was back to back
How we lose Kobe in that crash?
Tell my why the last couple years just been so trash
I wonder when I die who gon' cry? Who gon' laugh?
Why do good times always seem to move so fast?
Why?

Why am I fighting to live
If I'm just living to fight?
Why am I trying to see
When there ain't nothing in sight?
Why am I trying to give
When no one gives me a try?
Why am I dying to live
If I'm just living to die?

Why everybody wanna be famous?
But they don't wanna work hard and still expect their life to be changing
Why these new rappers mumbling shit?
Why everybody act wrong? Man, no one humbled 'n shit
Why they have to go and kill my cousin?
Why these trash rappers with no talent is the ones that is buzzin?
Why my brother diagnosed with cancer?
And why when he call I always question if I even should answer?
Why we fighting about religion and race?
Why is there always so much negativity up in my face?
Why we still treat the Earth like shit?
And why we treat homeless people like they doesn't exist?
Why Peep and Juice had to pop them pills?
Then someone tell me why Pop Smoke got killed?
Why the good die young and the rich get richer?
They make more money every time the sick get sicker
Why?

Why am I fighting to live
If I'm just living to fight?
Why am I trying to see
When there ain't nothing in sight?
Why am I trying to give
When no one gives me a try?
Why am I dying to live
If I'm just living to die?