Something To Hold Onto

(album: Better Off - 2018)

She still sings of the way it feels to know
She'll be held close by the one she calls her own
But I still know damn well
That I never got to say how I really felt

Given that it's over now
She still attempts to make a sound
But it's not only a cry for help
But the fear of never being held again

And I never took it back:
The feeling of bearing the facts

And I never took it back
'Cause you could say the truth was all I had
But the feeling of bearing the facts
Was too much too soon to carry back

And she bears the blame again and again
But she knows it's not her fight to defend
And I never showed her that, no

Could you fathom the world at all
If you felt any bit as alone as she?
Would you fight the urge to
Relinquish what you believe?

Oh God, I tried to
But it was better to hide the sting of being lied to
For so long, for so long, for so long

Holed up inside a nest of everything that reminds her
Of the way it felt to have somebody beside her
And I never showed her the only way out
(The only way out)

Could you fathom the world at all
If you felt any bit as alone as she?
Would you fight the urge to
Relinquish the memory of when she said

"You don't have to stay
I could be okay on my own:
The side of me you'd always dreamed of
It's better left unsaid what really happened, then

The day you walked out of my bedroom and left

The day you walked out of my bedroom and left"

She might not know
She'll be better alone
It could be so long before anybody's home
'Cause I never showed her the only way out
Was for her to learn to love herself

Was for her to learn to love herself

Could you fathom the world at all
If you felt any bit as alone as she?
Did you fight the urge to
Relinquish what you believe?

(When she said)
"You don't have to stay
I could be okay on my own:
The side of me you'd always dreamed of
It's better left unsaid what really happened, then
The day you walked out of my bedroom and left"