Have You Seen Me

Today is Thursday, November 7, 2013, and I'm fed up with doing all this business, Hopsin, Knock Madness shit man, fuck this rap game

I swear to God I'm feeling so sick (so sick),
It's like I don't know where my home is (home is),
Nigga gone you can see it in my eyes
I ain't even got the strength to fucking cry
So tell me if you can find me, Where'd I go?
Have you seen me? I don't know
See I, used to think my money would bring me happiness,
Now I can't believe this is happening, (where'd I go?)

A nigga feel gone, lost, ain't got no purpose, spent a year locked in churches,
Trying to jot the verses but I'm stuck with these rotten curses.
Every time I rap you can hear the pain burn through,
Because I never had a real family to turn to,
I got shit on my nerves, to give me the urge, to tell curse words,
But I'm really trying to learn to, Keep it all under control,
But I can't because I'm stuck in a hole, the devil trying to fuck with my soul, making me a slave to the game,
Taking away my joys and handing me a bucket of gold. (No!)
I don't want it no more, take these groupies I ain't fucking your whore,
Imagine the feeling when your stomach don't roar,
I wake up every morning and a rugged cold war,
(Fuck my life!) Fuck am I doing man?
"Hopsin you're the man, I love all your songs, I'm like a really big fan".
Issues occurred started back in high school when I used to get beat on,
Now I hide myself with contacts and the fame's a drug I O-D on

I swear to God I'm feeling so sick (so sick),
It's like I don't know where my home is (home is),
Nigga gone you can see it in my eyes
I ain't even got the strength to fucking cry
So tell me if you can find me, Where'd I go?
Have you seen me? I don't know
See I, used to think my money would bring me happiness,
Now I can't believe this is happening, (where'd I go?)

This is not on my album, I just made it today cause' I just needed to vent, and talk, sitting in this fucking basement, you're driving me crazy, (uhhh) I'm weird now, I can honestly say that I'm fucking weird, I have changed, but I didn't go hollywood,
I don't know what the hell I-, I don't know.