If You Want To Know

(album: Everything Will Take Time - 2020)

Used to tell you baby when you plan on coming down just let me know a bit of ahead of time
But now I tell you if you got any plans to let me down you should let me know ahead of time
My heart races then it plummets
Then it drops into my stomach
Then I can't speak I got a knot inside my throat
'Cause then it hits me that I'm broken, and my scars are 'bout to open
Can't even talk about this rubbish
I kept us hush, I ain't come out about us public
So who the fuck am I supposed to vent to shawty when nobody knows nothin'?
They gon' think that I'm just bugging
Maybe right now is not the time for this
You want me acting out of line for this
To be honest girl I don't mind for this
But I don't have the right mind

If you want to know baby, I don't know what I want
I just want to be the man now
Don't want to be another man down
Hoo oh
If you want to know what I want
I just want to be the man now
Just want them all to understand now
Ain't no turning back on me
Baby if you got me then don't slack on me
Trying to have a baby and go half on me
But I don't even know what I want for me right now
People turn they backs on me
If you say it then I'll keep the strap on me
Last man treated you bad for me
God had you written in my plans for me
So just know you can't ever turn your back on me anymore, my baby

I called you six times Dean

She says look at who you are now
Of course they hate you and despise
Throwing bunch of evil eyes
All because of who you are now
But it don't work and it's too hard now, yeah
It's getting chilly out in Brooklyn
All these crooks is out here looking for a juksing
They got to feed everybody else that's looking
That's why I'm always in the studio cooking
What if I did that?
What if I did this?
What if I didn't drop out of college?
What if I threw us a couple of parties?
What if I never quit my job at KP?
Would I be single or end up with Katie?
She used to work in the makeup at Macy's
She used to tell me what I want is crazy

But to be honest with you baby, I don't know what I want
I just want to be the man now
Don't want to be another man down
Hoo oh
If you want to know what I want
I just want to be the man now
Just want them all to understand now
Ain't no turning back on me
Baby if you got me then don't slack on me
Trying to have a baby and go half on me
But I don't even know what I want for me right now
People turn they backs on me
If you say it then I'll keep the strap on me
Last man treated you bad for me
God had you written in my plans for me
So just know you can't ever turn your back on me anymore, my baby

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