I Hate You

(album: If/Then: A New Musical - 2014)

[Idina Menzel as Liz Vaughan:] I hate you.
[James Snyder as Josh Barton:] I know.
[Idina Menzel:] I love you.
[James Snyder:] I know.
[Idina Menzel:] Don't go.
[James Snyder:] Liz...
[Idina Menzel:] I know.
[James Snyder:]
I won't be anywhere near the action. I'll be in some air conditioned tent, miles from everything.

[Idina Menzel:]
I hate you, I hate you,
I love you, I hate you,
don't do it, I need you
Forget it, I know you
My God how I hate you
Don't leave me, I love you
Don't say that you love me
'Cause what does it matter?
You're going to leave me
So leave me, whatever
It's not like I need you
I need you, don't leave me
You know I'm not selfish
But me, me, me, I, I, I
Need you to stay...
Okay?

[James Snyder as Josh Barton:]
In my life I haven't made that many promises.
Just one to them and one to you.
And you know me like no one has known me before.
And so you know what I have to do.
And no matter what you say, you want me to.

[Idina Menzel:]
Let's look at this calmly
Discuss how I hate you
The ways that you've hurt me
Though really you haven't
You're clearly about to
Don't touch me, I hate you
Just leave us, whatever
We'll get on without you
I'm tough and resourceful
I'm steady and sturdy
And freaking the fuck out
I love you, I hate you
So screw you. You're making me crazy
So, go!

Wait, no!

In my life I've always said I don't need anyone.
I like our life and I love you.
And I swore that I'd love without wanting or needing you.
But it's too late. I need you, too.

You're the reason I think this life might not be meaningless.
You're my North Star, my map to grace.
You're my single best decision.
In a life of many awful ones.
My one big "Yes", my one embrace
With you I never feel I'm out of place.

[James Snyder as a Solider:]
We believe the insurgents intended the RPG attack to inflict the maximum casualties in the medical facility.
Your husband was working his second shift that day.
The CO wanted you to know that the number of lives that he saved on this deployment alone was extremely—

God damn it, you did it
I knew you would do it
You asshole, I hate you
I totally blame you
And—really!—how could you?
I hate you, I hate you
I hate that I hate you
I hate that I love you
I love you
I—

Loved... you.

I loved you.

I lost you, I hate you
God damn you, you asshole
You motherfucker!

In my life I haven't made that many promises.
Just one to him, now to you, too.
That I will never let this world take me away from you.

I brought you both here.
I'll see you through.
Whatever comes.
Whatever I must do.

It's me and you.
It's me and you.
It's me and you.