Losing Control

(album: Layers Of Reflection - 2016)

I don't understand why I'm chasing affection
At dinner with this girl I'm barely paying attention
I got you on my mind I'm never learning my lesson
Cause when you pull the plug you end up losing connection
Even when you're next to me I'm feeling the distance
Every other day is like, tell me what is this
Only when you're lonely you're like baby I miss this
Once upon a time you were all on my wishlist
All i wanted for Christmas
Now I'm driving more to leave it all behind
I'll tell you that I'm doing just fine
I'll tell you that you're special, that you're one of a kind
So I don't break your heart like you did mine
Losing control is like the worst phrase
Like tell me when I had it in the first place
Like tell me when I had it in the first place
Thought our story would be longer than the first page
Need to vent it out, don't you get it now
I'll write a thousand lines just to get it out
I need to let it out for me to get around
If I ever had control it's gone now
Our picture frame is perfect but I see the broken pieces
You got my favorite sweater, don't you worry you can keep it
I think about us all the time and know that ain't a secret
If you told me you loved me I don't know if you would mean it
All I know is this feeling is getting old
If you saw me you would think nothings wrong
I don't know if I'll ever have control
I haven't felt like myself in so long

Rhyme through the city like ain't nothing to it
Got a smile on my face like ain't nothing to it
Like yeah yeah yeah same things what we doing
Every time I send a text I'm like man what you doing
Took the back roads
Now I'm headed for the sunset
I hate when you get upset
But lately I've been upset
And lately I'm adjusting
To everything that we been
To everything that we said
And everything I never meant
And every call I never sent
If there's one thing you should know
I'm losing control

I said a lot of things that I didn't mean
But those feelings came from somewhere
Riding in your neighborhood doing me
And we're fighting in my car like why'd I come here
And if you're listening now, I wanna tell you what's worth it
Without imperfections how can I tell you what's perfect
I broke you more than promises you didn't deserve it
And every sorry you heard it but tell me how could I word it
That wasn't all me, it was me and you
There should be a word for it, you heard me too
Instead of heartbreak, why'd you give me two
Young and naive like, I'll never leave
Now we're never together
You say it's for the better and our feelings whatever
I'll put my heart in a tether
And I'll keep writing these letters as if I never cared
Put a smile on my face like I never cared
The way you replying it's like you never cared
Did you forget who we were, cause I was there
It's hard to blame you when I'm feeling it too
It's hard to be okay when I'm better with you
It's hard to move on running into you
I'm losing control I don't know what to do

Rhyme through the city like ain't nothing to it
Got a smile on my face like ain't nothing to it
Like yeah yeah yeah same things what we doing
Every time I send a text I'm like man what you doing
Took the back roads
Now I'm headed for the sunset
I hate when you get upset
But lately I've been upset
And lately I'm adjusting
To everything that we been
To everything that we said
And everything I never meant
And every call I never sent
If there's one thing you should know
I'm losing control