bad again

I'm sleeping too much and somehow not enough at the same time
The shower's my enemy, I've been avoiding the front lines, yeah
I justify self-medicating by saying, "it's just this time"
But one turned to two, and then three, now I see that they're warning signs

Slowly slipping, start to spiral
Caught myself in self-denial
Guess I can't keep lying to my brain

It's getting bad again (Fuck)
I know myself and no, I can't pretend
It's getting bad again

I'm watching my life from the passenger side of a train wreck
Someone cut the brakes but I don't even brace for the impact, and
I've been hit so many times to count
Wasted my energy, emptied my bank account
All for the sake of trying to change
Something that won't go away

Slowly slipping, start to spiral
Caught myself in self-denial
Guess I can't keep lying to my brain

It's getting bad again (Fuck)
I hate this feeling, God, how I wish it would end
I know myself and no, I can't pretend
It's not too much, feel like giving up on this
It's getting bad

(It's getting bad again)
Hold my breath, I'm going under
Try to fight this, I don't wanna
Feel like sinking any longer
It's getting bad
(It's getting bad again)
Hold my breath, I'm going under
Try to fight this, I don't wanna (It's getting bad again)
Feel like sinking any longer

It's getting bad again
I know myself and no, I can't pretend
I hate this feeling, God, how I wish it would end
I know myself and no, I can't pretend
It's getting bad again