Double Crown

(album: Crosses And Crossroads - 2019)

Only thing I need right now
Is something stronger than this double Crown
It's going down, down, all the way down
I don't know if I can find my way out
They got me taking pills that they gave me
Hoping that I can feel something but I feel nothing
I can't escape the memory of taking everything
That was real from me, yeah I'm still nothing

I'm all alone on this path that I follow
To drown out my sorrows I'm back to the bottle
It's real humble pies that I'm having to swallow
I swear I can't tell you all half of my problems
Came from the bottom this isn't new to me
Dealt with the fake friends, dealt with the foolery
Now that I'm grown usually home with the family alone
And I swear that shit cool with me
Grown ass men does grown man shit
How you need another grown man to pay your rent
That don't make no sense
How they wave it and forget it
And I'm more independent than most these men
Pray to my knees hurt, Lord knows I done it
It's a lot of loneliness on this road I'm running
So high that the crash was a nose dive plummet
Learn no good deed goes unpunished

Only thing I need right now
Is something stronger than this double Crown
It's going down, down, all the way down
I don't know if I can find my way out
They got me taking pills that they gave me
Hoping that I can feel something but I feel nothing
I can't escape the memory of taking everything
That was real from me, yeah I'm still nothing

I don't understand why they try my patience
Know I'ma wait for the right occasion
I feel like I really need isolation
Or the monster inside of me might awaken
Look at my past and I still can't believe it
My daughter she gave me a chance and a reason
Most of the time I'm at war with myself
Some of the time I just dance with my demons
I know when I'm wrong, guilty as sinned
I can't describe how I'm feeling within
I just express it and asking this question
If this depression ever really will end
Don't understand why I feel this way
I don't understand why I feel so caged
Wonder why my life always feel so staged
Trying to make sure that the bills get paid

Only thing I need right now
Is something stronger than this double Crown
It's going down, down, all the way down
I don't know if I can find my way out
They got me taking pills that they gave me
Hoping that I can feel something but I feel nothing
I can't escape the memory of taking everything
That was real from me, yeah I'm still nothing
Only thing I need right now
Is something stronger than this double Crown
It's going down, down, all the way down
I don't know if I can find my way out
They got me taking pills that they gave me
Hoping that I can feel something but I feel nothing
I can't escape the memory of taking everything
That was real from me, yeah I'm still nothing