Love Me

(album: A Beautiful Disaster - 2020)

I come from the bottom
I ain't ever had the upper hand
I will put it all on the line
I have no other plans
I am at war with myself
Do you really understand?
Would you love me if you really knew just how fucked up I am?
Some days I wonder if I disappear would anybody care
Some days I wish that somebody was here but there's nobody there
Ask me where I'd rather be than here, I'll say anywhere
I just roll another stick of gas and put it in the air
Come on let's have a conversation, I'll show you how pain feels
I can take you to a place where everyone's on pain pills
And the kind of pain we feel is something pills can't heal
You won't feel me if you ain't never struggled to pay bills
Lord strike me dead if I'm lying
Been in the belly of the beast
Went head to head with the lion
Ever heard a baby crying 'cause it's hungry and it's tired?
Ever seen a single mother that struggles to buy diapers?
I have

Sit alone in a dark room
Saying prayers to the lord
I keep seeing the signals
But don't know what they're for
In my mind I'm a prisoner
Sitting on death row
I keep hearing the whispers
Saying don't let go

If I said I'm afraid
Would you love me
Would you love me
If I showed you my pain
Would you love me
Would you love me
The same

Does a star's light die if there's no one looking
A recipe for disaster, my demons are cooking
Drink of regret, I've been left by some car keys
Celebrate my pay with my name on the markings

Sit alone in a dark room
Saying prayers to the lord
I keep seeing the signals
But don't know what they're for
In my mind I'm a prisoner
Sitting on death row
I keep hearing the whispers
Saying don't let go

If I said I'm afraid
Would you love me
Would you love me
If I showed you my pain
Would you love me
Would you love me

Sit alone in a dark room (Sit alone in a dark room)
Saying prayers to the lord (Saying prayers to the lord)
I keep seeing the signals (I keep seeing the signals)
But don't know what they're for (But don't know what they're for)
In my mind I'm a prisoner (In my mind I'm a prisoner)
Sitting on death row (Sitting on death row)
I keep hearing the whispers (I keep hearing the whispers)
Saying don't let go (Saying don't let go)