Feelings

(album: Self Medicated - 2020)

What I'm feeling, my heart is as numb as my taste
But it keeps beating, watching as nights turn to days
Can't feel my face, can't shake this pain
Stuck in my ways, staring in space
So please don't leave me, Heaven is so far away
So far away

Ever lost someone you love, ever cry yourself to sleep?
Had a puddle on your pillow, and still didn't find no peace?
I've made mistakes out of desperation
I'm in a place of hate and self-deprecation
Sleep-deprivation, I've been on a three-day bender
From the other side, I can find my peace amongst the sinners
I've been try'na stay sane, put my sorrows in that cup
I been drowning all my pain with a bottle and a bump
Now my heart's racing and I feel the pain draining
And it's like the sun's blazing and I think the rain's fading
I've learned that happiness is really only temporary
Reading your obituary, smoking at the cemetery

What I'm feeling, my heart is as numb as my taste
But it keeps beating, watching as nights turn to days
Can't feel my face, can't shake this pain
Stuck in my ways, staring in space
So please don't leave me, Heaven is so far away
So far away

I live in this depression, a sadness I can't shake
When every conversation's forced, every smile's faked
Unless we talking Chloe, I ain't felt shit since '03, nah
And just to be clear she's the only thing keeping me here
Cause home won't be here I promise you
I hear everything they say about me
Don't already hate everything about me

What I'm feeling, my heart is as numb as my taste
But it keeps beating, watching as nights turn to days
Can't feel my face, can't shake this pain
Stuck in my ways, staring in space
So please don't leave me, Heaven is so far away
So far away