Bad Santa

(album: Human - 2015)

[Verse 1 Joell Ortiz:]
Sometimes I wonder if he knows I love him
I don't feel that daddy squeeze when I hug him
He says "I love you" when he hanging up the phone but it's muffled
Like he's uncomfortable saying it, so his voice has trouble
Getting the words out, his mother gave up being my baby
She packed her bags and hit Atlanta when he was a baby
Man them first couple of years it was crazy
I'm back and forth to child support then she agreed he could stay with me
On Christmas vacations, I would lift him up, raise him
So high in the air, my eyes tearing, this kid is amazing
This year is the fourth generation PlayStation I know he's awaiting
It's under that tree waiting
It's that look on his face when he's happy that makes me proud to be daddy
When he runs over and grabs me, filled with true joy
In the same moment I'm bothered, I mean he knows I'm his father
But am I just that once-a-year homie with new toys?

[Hook Joell Ortiz:]
Sometimes I wonder if rap is a gift
Every 25th he's unwrapping his gifts
Pardon me if I curse when I'm rapping and shit
But sometimes a fucking curse comes wrapped as a gift
A curse comes wrapped as a gift
Sometimes a fucking curse comes wrapped as a gift
Every 25th he's unwrapping his gifts
Am I a bad Santa?

[Verse 2 Jared Evan:]
Will you show up in the middle of night?
Will you be the one to turn off the lights?
I hope so
When I see you, everything is alright
But will you really be here tonight?
I don't know
It's like all this time, I've been wandering, waiting for you
You stay on my mind, cause I belong to you
Santa...

[Hook Joell Ortiz:]
Sometimes I wonder if rap is a gift
Every 25th he's unwrapping his gifts
Pardon me if I curse when I'm rapping and shit
But sometimes a fucking curse comes wrapped as a gift
A curse comes wrapped as a gift
Sometimes a fucking curse comes wrapped as a gift
Every 25th he's unwrapping his gifts
Am I a bad Santa?

[Bridge Joell Ortiz:]
It's you I'll always be there for
I'm just wishing I could be there more
This music's keeping me on tour
But I'll be right back to see my boy

[Hook Joell Ortiz:]
Sometimes I wonder if rap is a gift
Every 25th he's unwrapping his gifts
Pardon me if I curse when I'm rapping and shit
But sometimes a fucking curse comes wrapped as a gift
A curse comes wrapped as a gift
Sometimes a fucking curse comes wrapped as a gift
Every 25th he's unwrapping his gifts
Am I a bad Santa?