Do It To Myself

(album: Ladybug - 2023)

Insecurities
Keep bouncing around my head stalking me
Sticking to my skin like vaseline
And no one knows
And no one knows
The higher that I go
The harder that I fall on broken bones
I'm going through withdrawals when no one's home
Nobody's there
I'm fucking scared

But I'm getting so used to this feeling
Doing everything but healing
Wish I could stop the bleeding
(But instead)

I do it to myself
I do it to myself
I do it to myself
The more I hurt, the worse it gets

Take me when I'm weak
And feed these masochistic tendencies
All my trauma soaked in gasoline
So no one knows
Yeah no one knows

I'm scared to take a break
Scared to give myself time to think
Shut up, I don't wanna hear a thing
Fuck you, I don't wanna hear a thing
No I don't wanna die again
But I don't wanna catch my breath
When I stagger we'll start falling off

But I'm getting so used to this feeling
Doing everything but healing
Wish I could stop the bleeding
(But instead)

I do it to myself
I do it to myself
I do it to myself
The more I hurt, the worse it gets
I do it to myself
I do it to myself
I do it to myself
The more I hurt, the worse it gets