Not Cut Out

(album: Katy McAllister - 2011)

She's beautiful, this I always knew
I'm just too stubborn to admit that's true
She's had you hooked like I never knew
Exactly just how to do
And I sugar coated every dream of you
That you're unable to make come true
And I lost faith the seventh time around
It appears as though I'm still here now
This doesn't mean I don't love everything about you
But sometimes that's not enough
And It doesn't mean I couldn't stick it out a few more years
It just means I'm not that tough
Whether you like it or not

I'll be around most likely
For years to come if you need anything
But I'll never be your lover
No I'm not cut out
For that job obviously
I'm not enough and I won't be ever if not now
Your temporary lover you lay down
So don't fall back on me now
Cuz I'm not cut out

I've been in trouble since the start of the first round
And I've dug a hole I can't get myself out
Been miserable off and on for a while
Just give it two more months, wait it out
And I told myself that you came back because you love me
But it turns out that I found out it's cuz you're alone again
And you never hesitated once to leave me standing
In corners watching you choose her over me again

I'll be around most likely
For years to come if you need anything
But I'll never be your lover
No I'm not cut out
For that job obviously
I'm not enough and I won't be ever if not now
Your temporary lover you lay down
So don't fall back on me now
Cuz I'm not cut out

For this, it's not worth it
From my end, I've been over it
Too many times, too many lines
I've never seen you so clearly
You're so clear to me

Sometimes I think I know you better than you know yourself
I'll call your every move, before you move it
The only problem is that I have too much faith in you
I see the best in you, but you wont prove it
It's obvious that it's real love because you disgust me
And I put up with you willingly when nobody else will
Thought I could stick it out a few more years
But who's to say, you would actually stay

I'll be around most likely
For years to come if you need anything
But I'll never be your lover
No I'm not cut out
For that job obviously
I'm not enough and I won't be ever if not now
Your temporary lover you lay down
So don't fall back on me now
Cuz I'm not cut out