Heavy

(album: Myself - 2019)

I don't got my priorities straight
Don't know who I'm gonna be today
I'm no victim, but I deal with shit on the daily
Something pulling, I can't get away
Never living outside of my head
I don't like showing weakness, so I always fake it

Maybe some day, I will gain composure
Maybe when I'm older, I'm scared, I'm scared, I'm scared
'Cause something feels like it's weighing me down
It takes control, turns my faith into doubt
Even when it's all working out
I'm on my feet, then I pull out the ground
So heavy, oh

And when you lay up, damn, I feel needy
I just can't take it, if it ain't you who love me when I'm naked
Fuck all my problems, wish I could solve 'em
Don't feel that, don't feel that, don't feel that wavy
I can't get up in the morning, it's too hard if I even try it
You ain't here to tell me, turn my anxiety into excitement

Maybe one day, I will gain composure
Maybe when I'm older, I'm scared, I'm scared, I'm scared
'Cause something feels like it's weighing me down, yeah
It takes control, turns my faith into doubt
Even when it's all working out
I'm on my feet, then I pull out the ground

I wanna be light, I wanna be light
Someone help me just feel alive
Is there a potion you got I could take?
I wanna be light, feel like nothing's right
If you got the answers, I swear that I'll listen
I'm ready now, ready now, yeah

Something feels like it's weighing me down, yeah
It takes control, turns my faith into doubt, hey
Even when it's all working out, uh
I'm on my feet, then I pull out the ground
So heavy

There's nowhere to run, if there was I'd have been there
You take yourself with you, you can't run from yourself
You can't go down to the neighbor's house
You can't run, you need to confront what's going on in your own house
You have to confront it