If I Try To Find You

(album: GEMiNi - 2020)

Haven't seen you in a while
I wonder where you are now
Seemed so grown, but I was just a child
Everything you said was so profound

When you found me I was perfect, freshly seventeen
Said you had never met a girl that was like me
Spilled your words like honey, sickly sweet and I believe
Swear I'm grown now that I know now but I still think

If I try to find you
Will I be scared with what I see?
If I try to find you
When you see me, will you believe?

You shoulda known better
You had a decade over me
Thought you were a storm that I could weather
I was blind babe, now I see

Shoulda listened when they told me to run far from you
Promised worlds and mountains that were never true
All you wanted was to fuck me, that's all you would do
I should move on, find a new one, but I don't want to

If I try to find you
Will I be scared with what I see?
If I try to find you
When you see me, will you believe?

Show your face
I need to see
The bitter taste
Of ecstasy
Why do I still care?
I still care