Green

(album: Cypress - 2022)

I'm growing out of old habits
Bite my nails and you find it unattractive
Some days I think I might be an addict
(Yeah I'm done)

I'm growing out my hair again
Wonder if you think I look different
The good kind of different
But you're indifferent

To everything that seems to be
Pulling me down into the deep
And life would be so easy if I could distract me

But I'm still green
When you hurt me
You don't know that you don't know that you hurt me
You're not angry so I'm angry

No I'm still green
When you go on
How you talk with your ignorance turned on
Nothing is wrong, nothing is wrong
From what you see

I'm growing out of some of my old ways
Paint my nails just to get myself to look away
But I still bite anyways
(I still bite, I still bite, I still bite)

I'm growing bitter once again
Think I might like the taste of your medicine
I'm incapable of forgiving
And forgetting forgiving

In my confession spare the truce
'Cause I still want the worst for you
I'd never wish you pain but I want you to feel it too

'Cause I'm still green
When you hurt me
You don't know that you don't know that you hurt me
You're not angry so I'm angry
I'm still angry

I'm still green
When you go on
How you talk with your ignorance turned on
Nothing is wrong, nothing is wrong

With us, with us, with us

(You don't know that you don't know that you hurt me
You don't know that you don't know that you hurt me
You don't know that you don't know that you hurt me)

But I'm jealous
Jealous of the darling that you kill
Deep obsession emanating for you still
I'll be your stalemate truth
Sit around and envy you
I won't envy you
I won't envy you

I won't envy you