Loving You Silently

(album: Songbird - 2020)

You always said I'd break your heart (one day, one day)
Ain't it funny how the roles reverse?
I shoulda knew it from the start (no way, no way)
I was never gonna put me first

No use in holding you from afar
If I'll just be opening other scars
If missing me's hell
Then there isn't much else I can do

So I'll go on, loving you silently
You're not the one but you're still a part of me
We never won, and never even really got to try
So you'll go on living inside of me
Watch from the front, instead of beside of me
You had to run, and never even got to say goodbye

I fly to you to make a plan (I fly, I fly)
But there's no clarity in smoke and dust
It hurts me but I understand (that I, that I)
Can't love you enough for the both of us

No use in holding you from afar
If I'll just be opening other scars
If missing me's hell
Then there isn't much else I can do

So I'll go on, loving you silently
You're not the one but you're still a part of me
We never won, and never even really got to try
So you'll go on living inside of me
Watch from the front, instead of beside of me
You had to run, and never even got to say goodbye

I know about your wounds
Know they need tending to
I cared for you
Wasn't pretending to
Hope it was true
The way you said you loved me every night

I know about your flaws
Would have been fine with me
You don't want help
I shouldn't have tried to be
I'm just myself
And now I'll be saying goodbye