Can't Go Back

(album: Cashmere Tears - 2019)

Frequent flyer, miles got my demons playing catch-up
Only nigga in first class, du-rag matching my leather
Pride matching my get-up
ACW my sweater
Denim I pair together black-owned
I spend it better than most
A lion don't leave the jungle by choice
And when it was time to speak up, you was losing your voice
Proving your noise only came from empty barrels
Annoys me, if I'm honest
So many did it for clout until they got it
Can we be honest? Really be honest?
When court of public opinion keep people fearing their judgement
What's really keeping you from it?
Really keeping you from it?
You speak, you say you want it for real
Then why you running, for real?
You say you stressed, man, I was stressed too
You say you next, man, I was next too
I know the wrongs that you said yes to
Deep in depression, I was dead too

I can't go back (To)
Feeling like I wanna die
Feeling like I'll never fly
Can a real nigga touch the sky?
I can't go back (To)
Feeling like I wanna die
Feeling like I'll never fly
Can a real nigga testify?

Clocking and clocking out
Played with Stevie, now they see me
I'm a topic now
I might drop another CD, start another drought
Wonder why they never see me, I was never around
I was working, I was working doing over-time
Got me feeling like I'm Marvin back in '69
Too busy thinking 'bout my baby in the summertime
Too busy feeling like a nigga can't get nothing right
I lost friends, I lost pride
I lost money, I lost hope
All my bills on the table, I see pills on the floor
I see blood on the wall, love, I'm dying at the door
I see pain in our people, I know we might see some more
Been a slave to the kitty, I seen homies turn to foes
I saw brothers on a high turn to fiends on the floor
Take my soul in the war, take my scars, let 'em show
If this is it, then let 'em know (Let 'em know)

I can't go back (To)
Feeling like I wanna die
Feeling like I'll never fly
Can a real nigga touch the sky?
I can't go back (To)
Feeling like I wanna die
Feeling like I'll never fly
Can a real nigga testify?