I Die Slow

(album: Winter Heartbreak II - 2021)

I die slow
I die, I die slow
I die, I die slow
I die, I die slow
I die, I die slow
I die, I die slow
I die, I die slow
I die, I die slow

They try to say that life is fast, man, life ain't fast
All these cars around the road that I can't pass
Speeding directly at the wall, hoping I won't crash
No matter how strong the drugs are, the high won't last
I'm so terrified of negative emotions
That I numbed myself with sedatives and potions
I've repressed so many quotes, and they were never even spoken
Now depression is exploding deep inside of me
And everything is broken, holy fuck!
That's the reason people get addicted to dope
There's something hurting inside, and they can't fix it with hope
Yeah, I'm tryna glue the pieces back together
If you stare into the void, then you can see me cracked from pressure
If I can give you any advice
Death happens one time, then life is over, you ain't living it twice
I hope you living it like, you know that one day your heart will bust
Even the son is gonna die and turn to carbon dust

I die slow
I die, I die slow
I die, I die slow
I die, I die slow
I die, I die slow
I die, I die slow
I die, I die slow
I die, I die slow

Can you imaging falling in love with the person that seems so perfect?
You'd think they were made for you
You'll have a wedding ceremony, all your friends and family come
And then you buy a house, and have a kid, maybe even two
Then everything changes
And it's like you ain't never met this person before
Things are worse than before
Listen to me newlyweds, let me get it through your head
Y'all can have a good marriage, or this could be you instead
They got married, they had children
He stopped caring 'bout his physical appearance
She started bitching, he never listens
He never helps her with the laundry or the kitchen
He never helps her with the child of course
She gets home from work with a smile that's forced
They filed for divorce, most married people do
You gotta work together, or they could be us

I die slow
I die, I die slow
I die, I die slow (Nah, not us)
I die, I die slow
I die, I die slow (Don't let that be us)
I die, I die slow
I die, I die slow
I die, I die slow

As you can hear from this album, I had a very difficult challenging last couple of years
And wanna tell you; therapy helped, communication helped
So if you feel like your marriage or your relationship is absolutely dying, it's not dead yet
Bring it back to life, work together, you can do it
We did it