Grow Up

(album: Letters From The Fire - 2014)

Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah

I've used you like the crutch for my excuse for too long
That's why I feel stuck, that's why nothing adds up
So what?
So what?
I can't keep blaming you for everything that's gone wrong
I know you had a fucked up time too, remember?
So what?
So what?

And I had to raise myself, I never told you
That it almost killed me, filled me with so much insecurity
Host your broken dreams on me
To make me become what you'll never be

Time to grow, it's time to grow up
It's time, I'm sick, so sick, I'm fed up
It's time to throw it all away
To leave it in the gutter, life starts today

I just know that if I ever had a daughter too
I'd never leave her side especially not so soon
But so what?
So what?
Those two guys that took my innocence away that day
And you just closed your eyes, paralyzed and walked away
And guess what?
I grew up

Just like you didn't see me stuff my face and throw it all up again
I cried, I begged 'cause I just needed a friend
Now that I'm stronger what hurts me the most
Is to watch my siblings' lives get fucked because of you both

Time to grow, it's time to grow up
It's time, I'm sick, so sick, I'm fed up
It's time to throw it all away
To leave it in the gutter, life starts today

And I can't blame or shame you anymore than I have
At the end of the day it's for my mom and my dad
And I'm grateful for everything that brought me to here
Every bruise that I got, every scar, every tear
Everything is as if you can't go on any longer
Just have to remember
What doesn't kill ya only makes you stronger

Time to grow, it's time to grow up
It's time, I'm sick, so sick, I'm fed up
It's time to throw it all away
To leave it in the gutter, life starts today