For Violet

(album: Collapsed In Sunbeams - 2021)

Couldn't always come to mine when your dad got angry
So I'd play Nujabes down the phone for you to hear
I could picture terror swirling in your iris
You would say, "I cannot bear this, get me out of here"

Wait
You know when college starts again, you'll manage
Wait
You know that I'll be there to kiss the damage
Wait
You know I bought a couple books I think you'd like
Just hold on for tonight

It feels like nothing's changing and I can't do this, can't do this
It feels like nothing's changing and I can't do this, can't do this
It feels like nothing's changing and I can't do this, can't do this
It feels like nothing's changing, it feels like nothing's changing

Oleander bushes flourish in your garden
I'd come 'round for pancakes and we'd stretch under the leaves
He would always act so sarcastically charming
Wonder if he realised how much he hurt his kids

Wait
You know when college starts again, you'll manage
Wait
You know that I'll be there to kiss the damage
Wait
You know I bought a couple books I think you'll like
So hold on for tonight

It feels like nothing's changing and I can't do this, can't do this
It feels like nothing's changing and I can't do this, can't do this
It feels like nothing's changing and I can't do this, can't do this
It feels like nothing's changing, it feels like nothing's changing