Can't Find It

(album: Half Man, Half Vamp - 2023)

Tryna find peace but I can't find it
Been tryna hide the real me behind these diamonds
And no it wasn't perfect timing, I was grinding for this
I been searching for happiness and can't find that shit at all

When you up look who see, bet they won't be there when you fall
I told Caprizi as long as he there, don't hesitate to call
Been tryna prove my love to her but, do shawty love me at all?
I ain't tryna talk I know what's wrong, I miss my mothafucking dawg

I just been wanting to be alone
I had to DND my phone
I ain't try to miss your calls
Rather put my pain on a song
That's just my way of not going insane from all these crazy ass thoughts
They say money don't make a change
Rather go through it with it than without it
It's like I still feel the same
But this shit feel different when you got it
Why you don't talk to nobody? And your life so private
'Cause I know these people slimey, they never seen a surprise
It's about 6PM I'm sliding
Heard them lil' boys said they looking for me, tell 'em I ain't hiding
Said, "Baby take yo' seatbelt off and put your mask on, it can get violent"
I been searching all around the world, that shit ain't nowhere where I been
For me to go far I wouldn't be free I swear my last time I stand

Tryna find peace but I can't find it
Been tryna hide the real me behind these diamonds
And not it wasn't perfect timing, I was grinding for this
I been searching for happiness and can't find that shit at all

I put my head to the sky and leave my two feet on the ground
Said, we may trip and we might stumble, but we won't never fall down
And the love inside, that's for my family, ain't enough to go around
Sometimes your family ain't your—, wait let's not do this shit right now
I'm on too much shit right now
Mixing uppers with the downers
She hate when I get this high
The only time she ain't around me
Just don't judge me or don't down me
Right now I'm tryna give it up
Percocet's make perfect sex o
You fuck with that, you like how I beat it up
Walk in my shoes you'd be confused
'Cause right now I feel like I'm stuck
Like, do I talk to God enough or do I call on him to much
Who said patients is a must?
I ain't got no time for that right now, I'm in a rush
Shit, right now I'm out of trust
Don't want a round if it ain't us
Right now nobody 'round but baby bottles and styrofoam cups
Another man down and he ain't getting up, this shit enough
Been tryna stay down, they feel I'm giving up
Can't convince me my heart ain't big enough, so how the fuck?

Tryna find peace but I can't find it
Been tryna hide the real me behind these diamonds
And no it wasn't perfect timing, I was grinding for this
I been searching for happiness and can't find that shit at all

When you up look who see, bet they won't be there when you fall
I told Caprizi as long as he there, don't hesitate to call
Been tryna prove my love to her but, do shawty love me at all?
I ain't tryna talk I know what's wrong, I miss my mothafucking dawg