Even Though I Live, I Don't Feel Alive

(album: Grim Peaks - 2019)

Even though I live, I don't feel alive
Even if I die you still gon' see me rise
Take a breath, no more stress
Sick of living, seeking death
I can't rest, no depressed
I'm no longer feeling blessed
Rest in peace to all the ones that murder me
Fuck the thought of failure, don't occur to me
Told my friends I made it, now they corner me
Burn down all my bridges 'fore they burning me

I don't wanna wake up anymore
I don't wanna wake up anymore
I don't wanna wake up anymore
I don't wanna wake up

And I'ma rise just to show 'em that the kid is not the same
All the money in the bank don't even change a damn thing
Still depressed
Still been popping pills to deal with all this stress
Still on meds
I just want out of this God damn place, yeah

It's so hard to try when everything is dying
I remember times when I could breathe
Vultures always prying
At my skin, I'm crying
It's so terrifying
I barely see the daylight
Sleep during the day time
Days blend to the same night
I don't even go outside, no
And I don't wanna wake up
Ever since I came up
I cannot relate to no one now