Kindest Regards

(album: Kindest Regards - 2013)

Here to tell you the truth
Tell you I'm nervous
Tell you my story
Tell you I'm worth it
Tell you my flaws and my faults and my doubts
Give you my heart and what's left of it now
Tell you my hurt
Tell you my pain
Tell you the thoughts I keep trapped in my brain
Tell you that nothing's the same
Tell you I'm nothing much more than a man
And tell you I fear I may never find love
Tell you I'm getting in touch with above
And right now can't deny that I'm scared all this music I wrote won't compare or warrant the buzz
Alone in my room, dissecting each line that I rhyme I don't know how I finished on time
Missed the drop date 3 times, I know that I let you all down
Well I was the first in that line so
Sever my soul from my body engulf it in music then give you something to relate
This is somewhere to go when your heart becomes cold and your friends become fake
As you stand on the edge of the world you feel like you're destined to break
And your grandma is screaming "You're worthless!" and calling you names to your face
Mom and I had to move to a place second time that I'll rhyme to pick this picture
And I can't deny I would hide in my room and would cry from dealing with ya
Pictures so vivid you yell in the kitchen I'm taking my boxes I've made a decision
I'm done with your dissing your father they're fixing I tried to be nice but you just wouldn't listen
I couldn't wait for the day just to give you my take on the shit that you did
Silly old bitch never be like you never be so rude
I hope I wish alone and sick, you sit but this is where we end it
It's crazy to me how the truth is often most offensive, battle tested
Learned my lesson to forgive but not forget
I spilled my heart opened my chest
Irrelevant you are to me but part to me honestly
Thought I should address, life often makes this mess
I've come to give you more while everybody gives you, less

Looking back on it all was a lie
At your friend's house and there's no other guys, surprise
And look who you're with I'm not trying to diss
I'm just telling you this that your feelings may fade but your memories stick
Hope you're happy with him
I honestly hope you're happy with him
And he does all the things that I would and I tried but I couldn't
Could keep going on but I know that I shouldn't
I shouldn't waste any more time
Shouldn't waste any more lines when you're drunk off the wine
Do you find me crossing your mind?
We knew this would happen with time but I think that we finally figured it out
That we would just never work out
I tried picking you up you tried pulling me down
But now life without you is where happy is found
And right now I'm just focused on music
Trust you would lose it
Ripped out my heart you abused and you used it
Love's not a label on Facebook
Where I gave you everything like "Girl wait, look!"
But you didn't care
I would just stare at my wall and you gave me no reason at all when you left
Picked myself up when you made me feel less
Much better off and at that I'd attest
Well now let's just put it to rest
I wish you the best
My friends don't respond to my texts
Yes I've been busy with Kindest Regards
But is it that hard just to call?
I wanna hang out yet you shutting me out
And you put in no effort at all
Now you got me confused like what did I do?
Used to tell you if I make it I'll be bringing all of you
Now, my circles are limited
Few of y'all walked out and left, that left [-] no one to lose
I got nothing to lose

And nothing to gain by not telling the truth
Been barely believing in love
I still really don't even know if I do
But if someone was ever to make me believe then that someone is you
I promise it's you
I never took action, you Snapchatting
Asking me where all my music is at
We're talking right now as I'm writing this rap
You're someone I wish that I always could have
And to be blatant, girl your name is...
Still can't say it, never could say it
Scared you would hate it
Wonder what crosses your mind when you play it
I'm patient I'm waiting for you
Even wrote Rescue about me and you
Maybe one day we'll be, we'll wait and we'll see
Now I'm chasing my dream and I hope you do too
And I'm hoping to prove I'm paying my dues
Dad will get drunk and pass out I'm like "What are you doing?!"
Booze and you lose it he knew it
So he got sober so proud, I knew you could do it
I'm out at a party ya'll tell me to drink
Here's what I think, I think you look stupid!
Sinking my soul in the music I do it for free
And just know that I'm woven into it
My fans we turned into fam
I'm here to guide you give me your hands
Tell me your thoughts and your dreams and your plans
They told me I never could be what I am
Now look where we stand
We stand for everything we said we'd stand for
When they tried to give us less we said "Nah, fuck that!"
We demand more
And we stand tall
Dan told me jump on the beat and go tell 'em the truth
That's what I do, I do this for you
I tell you my story to help you get through
And you see that this life is hard
The darkest nights make the brightest stars
I'm bringing y'all with me let's raise the bar
I know y'all can feel this whoever you are
Kindest Regards
Mark