My Best

(album: Go The Other Way, Called The Echo - 2021)

I don't believe
The moon or sea
Control everything
But it's hard to find relief
When I can't find
Reason or rhyme in anything
So I take to the streets
Indulge my needs
Avoid everything
There's a balance in between
I've been told it seems
'Cept when it comes to me
It's like why am I so scared to discover
That chaos starts and ends with me
When there's no other way to un-clutter
Or find the sweet in bittersweet
I'm doing my best
I swear I'm trying my best
It only feels like a test
If I let it
But I let it
I don't wanna pretend
It only feels like a threat
If I let it
But I let it
I'm trying my best
I'm trying my best
I'm trying my best

Anxiety's exhausting me
It's a self made bed
It feels impossible to dream
When you can't fight defeat
With warped reality
Try to ignore my soul screaming
I'm not listening
So I call upon my friends
To pick me up again
Without where would we be
It's like why am I so scared to discover
That chaos starts and ends with me
When there's no other way to un-clutter
Or find the sweet in bittersweet
I'm doing my best
I swear I'm trying my best
It only feels like a test
If I let it
But I let it
I don't wanna pretend
It only feels like a threat
If I let it
But I let it
I'm trying my best
I'm trying my best
I'm trying my best
Doing my best
It only feels like a threat if I let it
But I let it
I'm trying my best
I'm trying my best
I'm trying my best