Hang On

(album: Deathreats - 2018)

They say keep hanging on (keep hanging on)
And, to hold on, too (to hold on, too)
I used to be strong (used to be strong)
After all that I've gone through (all that I've gone through)
I don't feel like myself (I don't feel like myself)
I think I need help
The people I talk to (people I talk to)
Say keep hanging on (keep hanging on)
I don't know if I want to (I don't know if I want to)

I thought it would be better when I'm older
Celebrating birthdays with the devil on my shoulder
We liked to drink together but the minute I got sober
You started saying things that I've had trouble getting over
Now I'm just alone and I'm tired
I got 20 feet of rope, but I got nowhere to tie it
To climb out of this hole or pull myself any higher
'Cause I'm exhausted and my bones are heavy, coated with iron
Forged in a fire and molded with pliers
I know that I'm supposed to be the one who's giving hope, I'm a liar
I tried to jump the motor and exposed all the wires
But all it did was make a spark, it didn't power the tires
It's like I'm standing on the edge and I'm scared
I wonder if I slip 'n fall would anyone care
I did my best to fix it but it can't be repaired
And it ain't fair

They say keep hanging on (keep hanging on)
And, to hold on, too (to hold on, too)
I used to be strong (used to be strong)
After all that I've gone through (all that I've gone through)
I don't feel like myself (I don't feel like myself)
I think I need help
The people I talk to (people I talk to)
Say keep hanging on (keep hanging on)
I don't know if I want to (I don't know if I want to)

I feel like I've been living on the dark side
I know it's hard to tell but I've been going through a hard time
Fighting in a blindfold with my ankles and my arms tied
I'm running out of places where the bruises and the scars hide
Honestly I'm angry and exhausted
I'm appalled at what the therapy and medicine have cost
And I'm so tortured by the feelings that they told me they could cure
I'm running out of options, that's for sure
I don't want the sympathy or sorries, I'm not in it for the glory
Being popular is boring, I just want to tell my story
All that sappy shit is corny, I'ma make it till I'm 40
With the way that I've been feeling I might go before the morning
And when I leave I will not reappear
No encore, even if you stay to scream and cheer
I just hope I help you see it clear
'Cause now we're here

They say keep hanging on (keep hanging on)
And, to hold on, too (to hold on, too)
I used to be strong (used to be strong)
After all that I've gone through (all that I've gone through)
I don't feel like myself (I don't feel like myself)
I think I need help
The people I talk to (people I talk to)
Say keep hanging on (keep hanging on)
I don't know if I want to (I don't know if I want to)