Funeral

(album: Trying: Season 2 - 2021)

I know it's not
How you planned it but that's not
The worst thing in the world
I know that you're scared
'Cause you think I'll let you down again
But I wouldn't, girl

I want you to want me when you're dead
To roll in your grave like we're not done yet
To call off the whole damn funeral
Because our love is so damn beautiful
I want you to know that the past is past
That everything changed when I heard you laugh
'Cause you sitting there with your headphones in
You were the point of all this living

I'm sure that you're right
And I can't blame you for things you haven't done yet
Even if I'm scared you will
And I think a lot about May
About meeting you that day, I was late
And a serial blusher, never made it to a second date

But I want you to want me despite all that
To live everyday like the plane might crash
To chase every satellite and star
I'd pin all of my hopes to your handlebars
The truth is I'd be such a jealous ghost
I'd scrub all of your lovers names out the stone
'Cause you sitting there with your headphones in
You were the point of all this living

Your heart was full of boys and brimstones
Yours was full of girls who lied
Both got hurt by other people
Both found each other baby right in time
I don't need to live forever
Just not one day longer than you

I want you to want me when you're dead
To roll in your grave like we're not done yet
To call off the whole damn funeral
Because our love is so damn beautiful