peaked

(album: the tears we fight - 2023)

I wonder if I peaked in high school
All my friends say I'm better off, but do they know what I do?
Wasting all my time online with nobody to talk to
'Cause they all felt like they moved on
While I've been stuck here writing songs about
The shit I would've done if I went to college
I'd have new friends and think about them way less often
Feeling way less guilt for the stress I put on my parents
The way they're waiting on success to feel assurance
That their son didn't fuck it up

I don't regret a thing I've done
But that don't mean I can't go on
A trip down memories that I won't ever have
No, I don't think I've made mistakes
But I know damn well things have changed
Yet in my heart I feel the same, is this what's next?
Hope there's more left

I wonder if they think about me
They'd always say how nothing would change
But that ain't how it came to be
I bet they think I got it easy, if only they talked to me
I'd tell them how bad this year's been
How moving on to harder things isn't as bad as staying still
I wish I was better
I know I treated people wrong, apologize to whoever
But I know if they really liked me, they'd still remember
To send a message every once in a while, but never
Not for a lot of months

I don't regret a thing I've done
But that don't mean I can't go on
A trip down memories that I won't ever have
No, I don't think I've made mistakes
But I know damn well things have changed
Yet in my heart I feel the same, is this what's next?

I don't regret a thing I've done
But that don't mean I can't go on
A trip down memories that I won't ever have
No, I don't think I've made mistakes
But I know damn well things have changed
Yet in my heart I feel the same, is this what's next?
Hope there's more left

Hope there's more
Left