Monsters

(album: Lethal - 2017)

The monsters, the mon, the monsters
All I see is this pain in you
The monsters, the mon, the monsters (Pain in you)
All I see is this pain in you

I hear but I don't see the monster right below my bed (Naw)
I fear you'll never see the monsters in my head
This is reality, normality is fearing death (Death)
But all this battling, Brahma Bull or is it Jeff
See I don't really know the difference 'tween the two of them
It's slowly killing me this mind state I'm living in
The man in the mirror is a stranger I don't even know
My friends and my family are screaming that he's got to go
Slit wrists don't solve shit, nah I've tried (Nuh uh)
And the pills don't numb me anymore you're right
This isn't me, I'm not the character these people love
No living free I'm on a cliff looking for a shove
Too weak to find the strength, too strong to back down
I try to peak and find the link to bring me back around
I'm homicidal and suicidal with no friends
I'm holding a shotgun, a barrel at both ends

The monsters, the mon, the monsters
All I see is this pain in you
The monsters, the mon, the monsters (Pain in you)
All I see is this pain in you

This ain't a joke, it ain't a game, it ain't a fairy tale
There is no antidote to help me cope inside this hell
When I say monsters this context I'm speaking in
Don't want no sympathy I'm looking just to escape again
Jekyll in the morning but I'm looking for a place to hide
Never get a warning, I just wake and see it in my eyes
Apologize to everybody, everything I put you through
And baby, I can't lie, you took the brunt, it must be killing you
I never meant to hurt or misdirect your mindset
Listen 'til the end, there's no need to hit rewind yet
I love you, but loving me is so hard
'Cause every single morning, dealers handing you some new cards
You need some balance on this tightrope I've handed you
Not how we planned it and I don't know how I landed you
So many wrongs I ain't scared to say I need some help
But damn this song, I'm gonna rewind myself

The monsters, the mon, the monsters
All I see is this pain in you
The monsters, the mon, the monsters (Pain in you)
All I see is this pain in you

I hear the monster feel the blood slower heart beat
Angel on my shoulder plus the devil's trying to kill me (Kill me)
Every single morning every night I'm steady fighting this (Yeah)
The pen is inking words but I'm not positive who's writing this
Exorcist, head spins when the wind blows
Staring out the windows wondering how the end goes
Trying to block it out and overcome is what so many say
But does it matter? We're not in control anyway

The monsters, the mon, the monsters
All I see is this pain in you
The monsters, the mon, the monsters (Pain in you)
All I see is this pain in you
All I see is this
All I see is this
All I see is this pain in you