Inside Outsider

(album: Sad Clown Bad Dub 2 - 2000)

Inside out and upside down
Who qualifies to try to judge me now
Love is what grows off the synthetic of happiness
I wear a warning sticker that says "health to the hazardous"

Since all of Minneapolis fell into that river
It wouldn't disturb a word that I deliver
I found my confusion
I lost your religion
The analyst I is am
Corrupt the optimism

From the dock I fish in
Feed the worm a hook
Write another piece
Read another book
Once upon a time there was the end
Do you mind if I steal this pen?

I'm not as a bigger fan as I once was
I gotta learn to respect that lunch buzz
Such and such and nothing much
What the fuck girl I'm thinking that we should couple up
So here I stand from the outside in
Trying to recall how I swam to this island
I wonder if I was to scream 'til my voice quits
Would they let me push the buttons
Would they let me hold the joystick

Well maybe if I acted a little crazy
They would play me
They would feed me to their babies
Can't help but laugh at everything I cry about
'Cause I've been staring at myself from the inside out

Well who's that knocking on my head so early in the AM
Must be the landlord I'm late on my payment
Or maybe it's my ex 'cause I owe her some affection
It's probably the department of corrections
'Cause I've been doing it wrong for to damn long
Chewing on a soggy blade of grass
Put the money in the bag and make it fast
'Cause can't none of y'all fools save my ass

How can I hold
When I don't know what I hold
The outsider trying to climb out of the cold
Time and time again
I question the answer
'Cause the soldier always falls in love with the dancer

I can't play passing
The truth hurts
I wanna rock the boat
But I wanna rock you first
So if I was meant to say everything that's in my mouth
I'm 'a start right here from the inside out