everything at once

(album: Blue Hour - 2020)

I can't cry, I'm too anxious
Restless mind, I can't shake this
Said, "I am fine," but we both know I'm faking
I'm not feeling numb, I'm just feeling everything at once

Hate when you ask how I'm doing, I know that you're just assuming
I'm better now, not bleeding out
Get outta bed on a good day, lately that's all I can do, hey
I go through Hell to hide myself

I think about new ways to hurt me
But don't want my mother to see
It's not that I feel undeserving
Just blame it on the chemistry, that's why

I can't cry, I'm too anxious
Restless mind, I can't shake this
Said, "I'm fine," but we both know I'm faking
I'm not feeling numb, I'm just feeling everything at once

(Oh, oh)
I'm just feeling everything at once
(Oh, oh)
I'm just feeling everything

Whatever I do, I can't slow down, please don't leave me alone now
'Cause when I stop, my demons talk
I'm coming off apathetic, I play it off like it's an aesthetic
Clearly, I care too much, but I'm fooling everyone, oh

I think about new ways to hurt me
But don't want my mother to see
It's not that I feel undeserving
Just blame it on the chemistry, that's why

I can't cry, I'm too anxious
Restless mind, I can't shake this
Said, "I'm fine," but we both know I'm faking
I'm not feeling numb, I'm just feeling everything at once

(Oh, oh)
I'm just feeling everything at once
(Oh, oh)
I'm just feeling everything at once
(Oh, oh)
I'm just feeling everything at once
(Oh, oh)
I'm just feeling everything at once