In My Head

(album: Note To Self - 2010)

Fuck lovers
I hate this shit
It only hurts now
Just another relationship
That doesn't work out
fuck it I'm Atheist
And I let the word out
Fall in love with a crazy bitch
Your heart will burn out
Blood pressure bubbles up
What the fuck I feel stuck i can not touch
another one of these anti-depressants
Man, this can't be the message
Somebody hand me a lesson
'Cause I'm standing here stressing
While I'm planning my death and
This might be the last minute
That I stand on this planet
Look at me stranded
I'm panickin
And I can't understand it
My life is a manic depressant
But I manage to stand it
Until I land in the Hamptoms
I'm withstandin the damages
So I got gotta calm my nerves
And take a deep breath
cause I will never learn unless I take each step
Cause I'm
Feeling stronger now [x2]

Days pass and I wander along
I'm trying to find my way
They think that I'm living in the wrong
Well I got something to say
And we will always be the same
Even though we constantly change

There ain't a way to fade away
So take away the razor blades
It ain't safe to say
That making pain will take the pain away
There's greater ways to change the page
And everybody hates to say it, but
You gotta tame the rage
and quit saying you ain't gonna make it
Oh it's hard
I know that it's hard
You can't trust no one and you're covered in scars
There's knives in our backs
With our friends' names on them
We try to relax
But the pain keeps runnin
Our mind's off the tracks
But we try to stay on them
You lied in the past
While we remain honest
We're tired of this crap
we just tryin to make dollas
we grind for this cash
While you try to hate on us
Everywhere I go I know they want to fight me
Even though they don't know me they don't like me
They think that I'm terrified
I just hold my head up high
If they wanna fuck with me
Just know that I'ma let them try

Days pass and I wander along
I'm trying to find my way
They think that I'm living in the wrong
Well I got something to say
And we will always be the same
Even though we constantly change

These words will prove that
I will not live in fear
[x2]

I bet you want to know what I'm feeling like
While I'm sittin here spinning these rhymes
Well if you want to know what I'm feeling like
I feel like I'm the best of my time

Took my heart and I locked it up in a safe
With a straight face and threw away the key
Now that I know my heart is in a safe place
There's not a single thing that you can do to me

Days pass and I wander along
I'm trying to find my way
They think that I'm living in the wrong
Well I got something to say
And we will always be the same
Even though we constantly change

You have everything that you want
It's in your arms
It's in
Your arms [x2]