Better Version Of Me

(album: Hellbent - 2021)

You look at me as I am now and then extrapolate
You say there's good in me but I just want to amputate
The parts that make me sad, the parts I've never had
So I can start anew

I have a coping mechanism that I put in place
I remove every emotion from my hollow face
It's just a thing I do, it's just a thing I do
When I'm confused

I have a feeling that I'm losing my mind
Cannot deny this is a difficult time
And yet I'm telling everybody I love that I'm fine
I have to pull myself together again
Give something back to all my family and friends
It's such a pressure on my temporal lobe
But I still have hope

I want to be a better version of me
I have a vision that one day I'll be free
I'm gonna prove that I'm not already gone
I'm not delirious
I want to be a better version of me
I have a vision that one day you'll be proud
Instead of saving me from every mistake
I'm deadly serious

And when you break it down you say it's psychological
I look at things in the wrong way, I'm too illogical
And when it matters most, when it matters most
I fall apart

A broken heart, a broken soul, a broken everything
My inability to mend is at the route of it
If I could find a fix, if I could find a fix
To be a better me

I got a feeling that I'm losing my mind
Cannot deny this is a difficult time
And yet I'm telling everybody I love that I'm fine
I have to pull myself together again
Give something back to all my family and friends
It's such a pressure on my temporal lobe
But I still have hope

I want to be a better version of me
I have a vision that one day I'll be free
I'm gonna prove that I'm not already gone
I'm not delirious
I want to be a better version of me
I have a vision that one day you'll be proud
Instead of saving me from every mistake
I'm deadly serious

I'm going to be who I need to be
Love who I wanna love
Live how I wanna live
Be a better version of me
Be who I need to be
Love who I wanna love
Live how I wanna live
Be a better version of me
Be who I need to be
Love who I wanna love
Live how I wanna live
Be a better version of me
Be who I need to be
Love who I wanna love
Live how I wanna live
Be a better version of me

I want to be a better version of me
I have a vision that one day I'll be free
I'm gonna prove that I'm not already gone
I'm not delirious
I want to be a better version of me
I have a vision that one day you'll be proud
Instead of saving me from every mistake
I'm deadly serious

I'm gonna be, be, be, be, be what I wanna to be
Love, love, love, love, who I wanna love
Live, live, live, live, live how I wanna live
Be, be, be, be, be a better version of