Make It Worse

(album: As Far As The Stars - 2021)

[Tom MacDonald:]
Sometimes I think I screw things up on purpose
Been destroying what I love because I hate what isn't perfect
I still look in the mirror and see the teenager who's hurting
But he's grown into a man who thinks he's sad 'cause he deserves it, it's messed up
I think about it late at night, I think I try to fail, it's like
I have to bleed it right just to appreciate what gave it life
I carry it with me and they're gonna bury it with me, unstable behavior
If I can't change the way I self-destruct, then I'm in danger

I break all the things that I should save
I hate how I treat everything the same, aye
My brain knows a million different ways
To light flames and use the smoke to hide the pain

I used to love to watch it burn
I used to love to watch it all fall down
I used to love the way it hurt
I think I'm ready for a change right now
'Cause I don't wanna see it burn
I don't wanna watch it hit the ground
I don't wanna make it worse
'Cause I'm ready for a change right now

[Brandon Hart:]
When I was just a kid, I did these things to hurt myself
If I focused on the pain, then I could blur out how I felt
I know that everyone's the same, they just don't cut and poke themselves
We all feel it in our brains, the hopeless cry to let us out
You either learn to play the game or you avoid it altogether
Learn to go play in the rain or you will always look for shelter
I'm no better, I'm just weather faced by storms that came untethered
Learned to pick up all my pieces, stitch myself back together

Through all the hopeless nights that I was holding on to nothing
The fire deeply burning, know that something big was coming
I used to let it burn, now I like who I'm becoming
I'm ready for a change, I can feel it in my stomach

[Tom MacDonald:]
I used to love to watch it burn
I used to love to watch it all fall down
I used to love the way it hurt
I think I'm ready for a change right now
'Cause I don't wanna see it burn
I don't wanna watch it hit the ground
I don't wanna make it worse
'Cause I'm ready for a change right now

[Tom MacDonald (Brandon Hart):]
When it's all on fire and it all burns down, there's no way out
(Do you stand? Do you run? Do you hate who you've become?)
And when you so damn tired of going 'round and 'round and there's no way out
(Do you stand? Do you run? Will you change who you've become?)

[Tom MacDonald:]
I used to love to watch it burn
I used to love to watch it all fall down
I used to love the way it hurt
I think I'm ready for a change right now
'Cause I don't wanna see it burn
I don't wanna watch it hit the ground
'Cause I don't wanna make it worse
'Cause I'm ready for a change right now