I Try

(album: Too Deep For Tears - 2021)

(What is blackice?)
Yeah, yeah
Look

In the back of my mind, feel like crying but, bitch, I'm a soldier
That's just something I cannot do
I been toting that iron, been slanging it too
Bitch, I know that you lying, see it's just me and you
And y'all left me outside to dry but now I'm on fire and your neck on the bottom of my shoe
They wanna kill a nigga just because I'm speaking the truth
Bitch, I'm just real nigga, I don't know what else to do
Why lie, when I'm speaking on my life? It's the plotting on my eyes
Feel like I never get my rights
Even though I try, I try, I try
Even though I try, I try, I try

Look, I had a dream about one day, I'ma become
What I wanna be, gotta keep it a hunnid
Spend some time when I was fiending for company
Anybody, I just needed someone with me
Paranoid, know I need a gun with me
You my brother if you go on the hunt with me
Scratch stick, man, them niggas be wannabes
They'll go with you to show they'll slide
Can tell if you real if I look in your eyes
Got no gun in the club, throw a hook when I die
Boy, you need to pick up a book, learn a lot
I was crashing back then, I'm just glad I'm alive
I could've been dead, I'm just glad I survived
I'll spit in your face 'fore you fuck up my vibe
And I'm in the A, swear to God, I'm so high
You will lose your life 'fore anybody know why

Yeah, you know?
So niggas, God damn, hit the cut, they get to spraying
I got my sticks, yeah
My first instinct is to bust 'em, know what I'm sayin'?
Nigga like, "You a rapper, you ain't 'posed to be doing that?"
What the fuck you want me to do, die?

In the back of my mind, feel like crying but, bitch, I'm a soldier
That's just something I cannot do
I been toting that iron, been slanging it too
Bitch, I know that you lying, see it's just me and you
And y'all left me outside to dry but now I'm on fire and your neck on the bottom of my shoe
They wanna kill a nigga just because I'm speaking the truth
Bitch, I'm just real nigga, I don't know what else to do
Why lie, when I'm speaking on my life? It's the plotting on my eyes
Feel like I never get my rights
Even though I try, I try, I try
Even though I try, I try, I try

Look, and I'm steady spinning for those of you who be wishing we could switch positions
No, this shit ain't easy, you tripping
I'm up, now most all my friends don't went missing
I don't get it, pop a glizzy, get to switching
I wanna change, my mind stuck in the trenches
Gon' bust that flame to my opponents and finish
I see that boy, I'm smiling, upping a semi
Can't turn around, won't go back
No, I can't put the gun down, I could never lack
Freak ho, tell her, "Turn around," hit her from the back
And everybody know what is it if I got on all black
That lil' fuck nigga, big cap, need a tall cap
When I was down on my ass, where the fuck was y'all at?
When I was down on my ass, where the fuck was you?
Now you asking for some cash, I don't fuck with you
You ain't my people, why lie?
Run up and get hit like five times
Stand over, four more, that's a whole nine
Four slugs in the floor now
It's overkill, don't scream that shit if you don't know about it
Look, overkill, if you looking for me, in the back with some hoes prolly

In the back of my mind, feel like crying but, bitch, I'm a soldier
That's just something I cannot do
I been toting that iron, been slanging it too
Bitch, I know that you lying, see it's just me and you
And y'all left me outside to dry but now I'm on fire and your neck on the bottom of my shoe
They wanna kill a nigga just because I'm speaking the truth
Bitch, I'm just real nigga, I don't know what else to do
Why lie, when I'm speaking on my life? It's the plotting on my eyes
Feel like I never get my rights
Even though I try, I try, I try
Even though I try, I try, I try

(What is blackice?)
Even though I try, I try, I try
Even though I try, I try, I try