Numb

(album: Yours Truly Forever - 2017)

Look, I know I ain't been myself lately
I've been feeling like someone else lately
It's prolly this empty Colt 45 that's numbing the pain inside
Cause truthfully I ain't felt lately
I'm still a sinner, I'm losing myself, I need a sign
I needed space, I needed love, I needed time
And I never understood how you could treat me so heartless
Until I realized that you just needed mine
That's what I mean by "loving you never helps"
Cause I just can't decide between loving you or myself
I just pushed away cause I drew a line and you crossed it
Crossing out my exes and ex-ing out all of my loses, I know
What is like to lose somebody you love
And I know what is like to lose yourself to the drugs
And I know what is like to have to let go of someone
Cause they hurt you so bad that you're not the person you was
But they will never feel what I feel
In a world so fake I just need someone that's real
I've been dying to live, the devil shooting to kill
I just can't help but wonder if you think of me still
See, I've been losing my mind
I've been losing everybody I believed in
Anxiety is suffocating me, I'm barely breathing
I'm coping with the pain
Hoping that the rain just stops cause it reminds me of the day you said you leaving
We always seem to run from those who love us the most
And we never open up because we scared to get close
We running from the past and we numb ourselves hoping it'd last
Cause you left me when I needed you most
I said we always seem to run from those who love us the most
And never open up because we scared to get close
We running from the past and we numb ourselves hoping it'd last, we just hoping it'd last

Cause I know what is like to lose a person you love in
I know what is like to lose yourself to the drugs, I know
Yeah, I know what is like to lose a person you love in
I know what is like to lose yourself to the drugs, I know
Yeah, I know what is like to lose a person you love in