Fake Smiles 3

Yeah

Yeah, I'm still numb to the pain
Still take these drugs for the pain
I just can't run from the pain
I just can't run from the pain
You said you were done with the games
You just don't love me the same
I just can't run from the pain
I just can't run from the pain (I just can't run from the pain)
(You feel me?)

I don't wanna lose myself in you (You, ooh)
Yeah (Mm)
I don't wanna lose myself in you (I don't wanna lose myself in you)
Yeah
I don't wanna lose myself in you (You, ooh)
Yeah (Mm)
I don't wanna lose myself in you (Yeah)

I've been feeling like a mistake now
I don't know what's real or what's fake now
Like, "How many drugs do it take now to feel nothin'?
'Cause I'm still scared to break down, I can't break down, I can't show my pain
Sometimes I just wanna blow my brains
Wanna go out like Kurt Cobain
I been really trying not to go insane
I fucking hope it changes but I'm dead inside
Demons in my head that I let inside
I don't know how they always get inside
Flowers don't grow when you let 'em die
So don't let us die, I need something real
Holding on but can't fucking feel
You know I've been stuck in my ways, I'm still
Drinking daily, I've been taking pills
I just hate to feel, any fucking thing
They will never know all the shit I seen
They will never know all the pain it brings
I loved you 'til I hated me, I fucking hated me
I hated everyone
Everyone fake when it's said and done
I can't love so I rather run
I can't live without being numb, without being numb
Fuck everyone
Everyone fake when it's said and done
I can't love so I rather run
And I can't live without being numb, without being numb
And I'm still

Yeah, I'm still numb to the pain
Still take these drugs for the pain
I just can't run from the pain
I just can't run from the pain
You said you were done with the games
You just don't love me the same
I just can't run from the pain
I just can't run from the pain (I just can't run from the pain)
(You feel me?)

I don't wanna lose myself in you (You, ooh)
Yeah (Mm)
I don't wanna lose myself in you (I don't wanna lose myself in you)
Yeah
I don't wanna lose myself in you (You, ooh)
Yeah (Mm)
I don't wanna lose myself in you (Yeah)