Losing My Cool (Deluxe Edition Bonus Track)

(album: SoulFly - 2021)

Baby, you didn't think that I'd be clueless?
'Cause I don't know who you think you fooling
I don't think you're fooling me
If this is real love
'Cause I'm trying, but I can't lie (Don't never think of fooling me)
I'm losing my cool (Losing my cool)
I'm losing my cool
Yeah, yeah
'Cause I'm trying, but I can't lie (Turn it up a little bit)
I'm losing my cool
I'm losing my cool

Life of a youngin
Tryna balance my pain became my struggle
I was already deep off in my thoughts and feeling funny
How the ones I that love the most just can't keep it a hundred
I never thought I'd get this far, I used to doubt myself
God dealt me this hand, I used the out myself
Breaking in houses when I was younger, I was wild myself
They told me ten at fourteen, I went and found myself
In my cell writing raps often thinking 'bout Deyjah
Before she died, I told her my dreams and my aspirations
I used to cry just thinking 'bout all the shit she was facing
I know she smiling looking down 'cause I finally done made it
I love my lil' brother, he feel big brother be tripping
That shit just make me so damn mad that he don't fucking listen
And my big brother really gifted, but he really tripping
He tell me heal me, his addiction ain't none of my business
In his brain, he rock star living
Yeah, and we was raised the same, but we way different
Either way, and if you right or wrong, I'm forever with you
It's safe to say I changed the game, I made it out the trenches
Later I would come to find I was just the beginning
I still gotta cross all these oceans and mountains and rivers
Life of a rapper got me on the edge, I keep my pistol
Gotta watch my back 'cause I don't trust these hoes or trust these niggas
Tell me, who can you trust when people so deceiving?
Don't want no love 'cause she gon' leave and come back when she need me
She looking dead in my eyes, lying like a demon
How you slap the hand that had fed you, bite the hand that feed you?
I don't get it neither, yeah, yeah
I don't get it neither
My family don't see Nuni, they see Rod the Wave
So mentally and physically, I stay far away
Yeah

Listen, I
I regret saying I want 'em dead for switching sides
That night he died, I couldn't cry although I tried, uh
I can't lie, yeah
I'm losing, losing my cool

I lose my cool sometimes, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
I lose my cool, I loose my cool sometimes, yeah
Crazy life for the youngin
Tryna battle my pain became my struggle
They don't ask me how I be feeling, just asking for money
Wonder why all the people I love can't keep it one hundred, yeah
I don't want you to ever think you fooling
Don't ever think you fooling me
Need real love, mm-mm-mm
Yeah, yeah
I lose my cool, I lose my cool sometimes