i am

(album: searching for nirvana - 2021)

The rumors say
That I just wanna be a good person
And I don't wanna be a person that hurts anybody
And if I've ever hurt you I'm sorry
And I was wrong for doing so
I just love you so so much

I've said and done some crazy shit, that's all you know about me
I've always had a way of losing everyone around me

Sorry to my mom and dad that I probably alarmed
The friends that I ignored that told me not to party this hard
And one more for my ex, I'm sorry that I keyed your car
I don't recognize that person anymore

Think I'm finally done being the crazy bitch I was
So if I ever hurt you once
I hope you understand
That's not who I am

I am, I am, I am
I am, I am, I am
I am, I am, I am
(That's not who I am)

I am aware in many ways I still haven't changed
I am the girl that might get a tattoo of your name
I am no longer drawn to disaster
Push on to the next chapter and whatever comes after

I am ready to feel high when I'm sober
Tell me, am I growing up and not just getting older?

Think I'm finally done being the crazy bitch I was
So if I ever hurt you once
I hope you understand
That's not who I am

I am, I am, I am
I am, I am, I am
I am, I am, I am
That's not who I am
I am, I am, I am
I am, I am, I am
I am, I am, I am

I am ready to feel high when I'm sober
Maybe the worst of my bullshit is over

Think I'm finally done being the crazy bitch I was
So if I ever hurt you once
I hope you understand
That's not who I am

I am, I am, I am
I am, I am, I am
I am, I am, I am

Think I'm finally done being the crazy bitch I was
So if I ever hurt you once
I hope you understand
That's not who I am

I am, I am, I am
I am, I am, I am

Hi Ry-Ry, its grandma
Just sending lots of love and kisses and hugs
Hope everything is okay
I love you, grandma misses you
And I'm so proud of you, my rockstar